MarchingBand.

So for all of you that don't know,
My 4month old baby nephew passed away on 8.7.09 & the Funeral was on tuesday. I'm glad that FH was on the day it was on, and that my band teacher moved up band camp 2 weeks. i wouldn't have want to pay for FH and be excited, only to be crest fallen by not being able to go. it was wierd. IDK. Things always seem to work out for me.

I'm usually outgoing, or atleast I think so, but when I'm in shock, I turn inward. It's wierd. I don't really like to tell a lot of people, and I hate it when they try to console me. Words are so empty. IDK. Everyone means well, but it's so empty.

Ehh, I hope FH was fun and really a blessing for you guys. I'm sad that I didn't get to go.

IDK.

I've narrowed down a couple of colleges I would like to go to.
Oxford university in London
Cornel university in NY
UVA in va...
VCU in va
Or a christian college.

I've been getting thoughts lately that I would like to enlist in the army. Not to kill people, but... Here's my attempt to explain it.

It's like marching band kind of. I love being able to work in a team, but also playin a very individual part. Just like marching band, I like to march to my spot, but I like how it's a team event. Haha, not such a serious thought. My life is so random.

I think I'm going to spend a semester abroad in spain in college. I want to run with the bulls in pampalona.

I'm turning so wierd.

I like bullying the freshman, especially when they give me lip, and if they're fobs. I lay down the law. Keke.

Did you guys really miss me at FH? or is it kinda one of those things that everyone says.

I think I have trust issues. I never take words at face value. It is true, just like faith without action is worthless, words without something more is kinda worthless to me too..

I was in a pretty dark place last friday, but I guess I'm out now. Who knows. I wrote a private entry which I'll post in time. I like this tool. It allows me to vent.

I'm rambling.