7.8.09

It's late, and I'm still not in bed. I'm beginning to sleep later and later, which is fine, as long as I still wake up at an appropriate time, and get all the things I want done, done. I'm leaving for the beach in 3 days, so I'm excited, be there for a week. I'm reading this book called into the wild, and in it, the main character leaves all of society to live with nature. Thoreau, and John London fanatics often do so. I'm beginning to see the appeal. I hate this monotonous life, where everything is so readily given, I feel like I'm getting fat, like I'm not living precariously enough. I think It's because I listened to this seminar, talking about leadership, and God's work. Mother Theresa once said that she felt like if she didn't pray every 30 minutes, she could not do her work properly, and well enough. I forgot the speaker's name, but he helped found, or founded IJM, international justice mission, where they travel to far, distant places and fight for justice, as God often charged us to do. They need prayer, or else they will be consumed by this injustice, but when I look at my life, do I? I dunno.
and I found that Faith is like human contact. You don't always need to be in CONSTANT contact with this feeling for a relationship to still exist, it ebbs and flows like the ocean, yet still reemains, when we can't seem to see, smell, feel, or taste, or hear it. I guess I'm just saying that people shouldn't freak out if they don't talk for a while, since something stronger still remains. Just like this feeling God, or hearing Him, or sensing Him; footprints in the sand. This was rambling.

I've become detached from most, if you find this offensive, or troublesome, I'm terribly sorry. I've just been partaking in summer festivities, meaning I'm slacking off, reading some book, or playing on the computer.

I'm beginning to hate texting.

Tomorrows goal. err later today's goals
-Get up at 9:30 even though it's 12:45, and by the time I brush my teeth, read my bible, wash my feet, put on my retainer, and fall asleep, it'll be way over 1:30
-start Killer Angels packet
-Do 2 chem quizzes and get 10/10 on both.
-Run. First time in a while
-Pack for the beach.