3.23.09
Good day.
Not so much for me. Heh, here come the part where I gripe and moan about my life (8
Today in Chem I got the lowest score out of all my friends on a test, which I rushed through being an idiot. & after PE my friends and I were talking, when I said, "'cause it's fast and easy" and he replied with "like your mom"... & it upset me, it stepped over the boundaries. But it showed me how much it hurts even when you jokingly tease someone, I've been learning that a lot lately both from the receiving and giving end. I think I'm going to stop. It's going to be hard, since those little snide comments are so pretty entertaining. It brings you joy at the expense of another, like when you're watching america's funniest home videos, or something like that, where pain to the person in the clips results in laughter... I don't want to cause pain anymore, it's true what they say about getting a dose of your own medicine, but for me, it's going to take a lot.
On the + side, I did what God wanted, forgiving the guy that kind of ruthlessly challenged me. I was going to be petty and make him get his own music and stuff, but I just did my normal routine, getting his music out, helping set up his chair and stand, etc. But when he put his stuff on my chair I jokingly said, Hey, you're not first chair, yet... And he replied that our teacher wouldn't let him challenge me being so far into the year or some reason. I'm glad for that, but me and me retarded paranoia still worry that he's just telling me this so that he can get my guard down and strike me when I'm most weak, like after a crab maults out of its shell. eh eh eh
I tried sleeping with all my night lights off [1 lamp + 40 watt electric bulb in a night light] & I'm deathly afraid of the dark, but I managed some how. I think I gave myself a fright when I woke up groping infront of my face for some kind of way to see, I was in a rush, slep in late (x
Rambled today, will update later? IDK ap homework awaits [yay .__.] I need a signature ending so here it goes, I'll test one out each day...
Peace to:
My sistos in Christo
& to my brothas from otha mothas. (8
Not so much for me. Heh, here come the part where I gripe and moan about my life (8
Today in Chem I got the lowest score out of all my friends on a test, which I rushed through being an idiot. & after PE my friends and I were talking, when I said, "'cause it's fast and easy" and he replied with "like your mom"... & it upset me, it stepped over the boundaries. But it showed me how much it hurts even when you jokingly tease someone, I've been learning that a lot lately both from the receiving and giving end. I think I'm going to stop. It's going to be hard, since those little snide comments are so pretty entertaining. It brings you joy at the expense of another, like when you're watching america's funniest home videos, or something like that, where pain to the person in the clips results in laughter... I don't want to cause pain anymore, it's true what they say about getting a dose of your own medicine, but for me, it's going to take a lot.
On the + side, I did what God wanted, forgiving the guy that kind of ruthlessly challenged me. I was going to be petty and make him get his own music and stuff, but I just did my normal routine, getting his music out, helping set up his chair and stand, etc. But when he put his stuff on my chair I jokingly said, Hey, you're not first chair, yet... And he replied that our teacher wouldn't let him challenge me being so far into the year or some reason. I'm glad for that, but me and me retarded paranoia still worry that he's just telling me this so that he can get my guard down and strike me when I'm most weak, like after a crab maults out of its shell. eh eh eh
I tried sleeping with all my night lights off [1 lamp + 40 watt electric bulb in a night light] & I'm deathly afraid of the dark, but I managed some how. I think I gave myself a fright when I woke up groping infront of my face for some kind of way to see, I was in a rush, slep in late (x
Rambled today, will update later? IDK ap homework awaits [yay .__.] I need a signature ending so here it goes, I'll test one out each day...
Peace to:
My sistos in Christo
& to my brothas from otha mothas. (8
posted by Andy Cho at
2:48 PM
2 Comments:
yo BRAHJ!!
I love how you and Shalom share the little details of your day in your posts. It's so encouraging to see the small things that you guys do, the difficult decisions you have to make (forgiving others, humbling yourself), all out of love for Christ, setting yourself apart from the standards of this world. Continue to be a light for Christ! God must be so pleased with you, I know this!
muah muah muah
ditto to what angela said
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